Favoritism. It happens everyday. We hide it sometimes like it doesn’t hurt but the reality of it is, that it does. My whole life I’ve strived to be the best person I can be. I work hard at anything I did, hold my tongue when necessary and help others in need at any cost.
I just hate when others favorite other people over me without a fair chance. I’m an outgoing person, I stick up for myself whenever others try and bring me down. I feel kinda downgraded right now, I feel like I’m not appreciated, like everything I’ve worked for was completely overlooked. Like somehow I just don’t matter, that I’m just another person that clocks in and leaves. All this time I thought I was doing things right, confident that I was giving my best work on a daily basis, apparently I was wrong. I’ve just lost the will to care anymore about things like that.
I kind of realized that all the great things, hard work and never-ending love we give will often be overlooked. At the end of the day GOD will never overlook anything we do. He loves ME for all I’ve done and he is the ONLY one at the end of the day who cares what I do and cares about just me in general. I dont really care whoever else recognizes it.
There’s a 1000 lessons to learn in life and each day is a new one to receive. I guess after stepping away from writing for a while and watching the movie tonight it kinda changes my perspective on things. We shouldn’t care if we’ll ever get recognition for all the good things we do, because the truth is that we should only do them to please God, to love others and to just do for others for the joy of it, anything in our lives we have to work hard for, for as long as I live the rest of my life I’m going to strive to make a difference in the world, without expecting a single thing or being recognized for it, I just want to change the world for the better is that so bad? “When The Game Stands Tall” taught me so much about brotherhood, love and the fight to keep on going even we get knocked down. So inspirational.
I’ll leave you with this.
"Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.”
I won’t give up, I will forgive and I will once and for all let go of ALL my expectations, I’ll be completely free from here on out.
Awkward, lonely, fearful, scared, and worried. These are a few of the things we feel when we were growing up in adolescent childhood, specifically right around the age of 12. At the skating rink tonight’s I watched my little brother, I was reminded of all that seeing all the kids with each other, some I’m holding hands with others some, sitting alone and some just trying to be cool in front of their pals. I really don’t miss being at age but at the same time I must admit that I do. Back then I just worried about trying to please others, trying to be cool, trying to be just something. At 24 I just look at all that and just start laughing cause little do those kids know what’s about to hit them in their future years, one can warn them for what’s to come but we can’t prevent it. I would give anything in my power to prepare them for their troubles but no one did for me which I didn’t expect anyone too, and no one really could have. You see the one thing we have in common back when we were kids and right now is that all of us just want to be wanted by somebody or rather just want to feel whole. Too many people today, they just worry about what they’re going to do this day, what they’re going to do the next day, who they’re going to hang out with, who they’re going to be, what kind of clothes they’re going to wear, what job they’re going to have, what school they want to go to, what boy or girl there going to be with next, or even when they’re going to get married and have kids and start a family. Me on the other hand, after all these years, I’ve realized many things, one being that were not getting any younger so we might as well start living in the moment, we need to start loving unconditionally, not enough people do that. Some days I just wish I could rewind my childhood, my adolescents, mainly because I wish that I knew then what I know now, then again who doesn’t wish that right?
All in all life is a blur, we think we can see whats ahead sometimes but in reality, we can’t. I saw a movie tonight called “If I Stay”. It was quite powerful to say the least. To sum things up a bit it was about the power of love, how essential it is in our lives and how much we need it. Love is the reason we keep going, the reason were alive, the REASON for living. Love is the most powerful thing in existence. We make sacrifices for the ones we love because if it makes them happy, it makes us happy, and thats simply the beauty in it all. The movie was simply powerful and made me think about so much. Love may hurt sometimes, life may be a mess, but in the end, it’s all so worth it as long as we experience real LOVE. Keep living your life but remember to live in the moment, love to the fullest and follow every dream you want to conquer and remember if you must make sacrifices, do it for the ones you love who make you most happy, that’s what I think. :)
Today I saw a film that pretty much changed my life. It just made me think about plain and simply “life”. The movie is called “Boyhood”. For a brief synopsis it was basically about a boys life from when he was just a child and it played out through his entire life going through all his adolescent years. This movie was shot over the past 12 years which no movie has done in the history of filmmaking. It left me with a sad, bittersweet feeling but also somewhat happy. It reminded me of how quickly life passes us by which is all the more reason for us to grab life by the horns and just push through every curve ball that it throws our way. It reminded me that I’m getting older and theres no going back, reminded me to live in the moment, to be the moment and not take one second of this life for granted. “Boyhood” is a film about life in itself which is so unique and is the big thing that makes the film so perfect. It was just very realistic, very relatable and very well acted, I connected with all the characters and felt the same way as the young boy did about life and his artistic mind not fitting in with society very well. It was a 3 hour film but kept you so hooked like you were living the life the little boy was that you didn’t even notice the time length. The film left me with a pondering mind, made me love my life even more, look forward to raising a family and just plain out appreciate all that my folks have done for me. It reminded me that life is hard and it doesn’t just stop because you have a bad day but that also has its happy times that we need to soak up as possible to let it outweigh the rocks that it throws at us. It’s very rare for a film to just leave me thinking like this and make me appreciate my life even more. So many films today lack meaning as time goes on just for entertainment purposes and to put something out there to make money. The directors who I love are the ones who make films to change lives and thats exactly what Richard Lanklater did with this movie. Ethan Hawke was incredible as always and I was brilliantly surprised by how great newcomer Ellar Coltrane was in his role as Mason. I recommend this film to any human being on the planet who has a heart and searches for movies that hold profound meaning, hold your attention, and touch your hearts. I will definitely be owning this one and it is most definitely an Oscar winning picture. Lets just hope it gets in the nominations. This will be a film I think about for years to come and I’d say waiting 12 years for it to be released was well worth the wait because it flourished through and through. With all this being said I’ll end it with a profound quote from the movie that Masons Dad told him while they were bowling; “Life doesn’t give you bumpers”. It made me think at how perfectly true this was. Push through life with a smile, love hard, live well and laugh much, all the while get back up whenever you get pushed to the ground.